Jake Cade Delaine.

I know you are out there.
I know you hate me.
Yet you do call.
You do text me.
You told me she is pregnant.
That hurt.
You were mine.
My first love.
My first boyfriend.
The only man I'll ever love.
Knowing I wasn't good enough for you,
Gives me doubt that I'll never be good enough for anyone.
I don't know if you actually do hate me, or if you love me too much to hurt me more.
That last month hurt.
8 months.
I wanted more.
What happened to that?
You singing me to sleep.
Remember?
'Hey There Kaitlin'
'Together with the Sun Down'
'Your Call'
' Guardian Angel'
What happened? Where all those songs just things to trick me?
I hate myself for dumping you.
I hate myself for being clingy.
You made me feel normal.
Feel loved.
Now, I'm just a lost cause.